Then and Now

Then and Now

Back then,

I was afraid to fall in love

Something I have already did

Not just with the sex

But with the person I knew you were

The feeling you gave me when I needed a hug

Let me vent about things I didn’t realize I was holding in

You called me and did the same

Didn’t have the problems then

Right now,

I’m tired and the disappearing acts starting to get old

Games you playing making my heart so cold

The change you began still taking place

No one can seem to make their own space

My feelings still there regardless how hard I try

Notice your true colors and I’m tempted to sit back and cry

However tears can never dress the face of a thug

At least not this one you knew what was up

Cause back then,

I used to fuck round with your kin

And when that ended we were still cool like Chicago wind

Family secrets I never let out

Fell into your ears

Goals I gave up

Rethought about including you and your kids

Promised them a room

In my future crib

But right now,

I gotta focus on school

My promises to your lil ones Imma hold true

Because getting to the money is my current fetish

Hope you can stand seeing this monster you then unleashed

Joalane out the picture and Paulinah been released

So when you in need don’t come to me for help

Ask your line up

Since I see I’m no longer fitting the bill

Maybe later on,

You may get it together

Have your priorities right

Understand how a relationship should go

Cause the you I fell for back then

And the you I’m in love with now are completely different

I can’t lie regardless of the you later on

You will have my heart

Cause you saw me back then

When I was afraid to even start a right now

And didn’t think of a later

August 13, 2012