The Idea

The Idea

I feel in love with the idea of you:

Loving me

Holding me

Wanting me

Understanding me

Appreciating me

I fell in love with the idea of me and you:

Having our own

Making trips to exotic places

Graduating together

Creating a family

I fell in love with the idea.....

Guess that's the problem

I fell in love with an idea

And not the true person

Fell in love with the person I knew

Not the one in the present

But the dreams you promised

I viewed as a blessing

Didn't understand the lies you came up with

Were ideas I had of a love from when I was a kid

You listened and never judged

So I thought you really cared

You chased me

So I thought the feelings I caught

Made it all fair

But as time moved on your actions not your words

Proved my assumptions completely wrong

Confused on how to feel

Should I be: hurt

Sad

Heart broken

Mad

Not give a fuck

Or should I just be glad

That I'm back to the old me

But she cold hearted

Not capable of love

Someone I was sick of being

But she the one who shed no tears

Showed no fears

Held it all in

And had no problems from it

Guess the idea of me

The idea of you

The idea of us

Was just an idea

Of how some parts of love should be

But I guess the idea of me

Wasn’t enough to keep you out the streets

So me and my ideas are going

And I regret to inform you

My ideas of us will remain just that

An idea

August 15, 2012