I'm so tired of pretending to be happy. For the past 10 years and some change I have had to deal with more stress on my own then most females I know. A family full of two-faced females who act one way in public, but talk bout each other when the other one is not around. Nobody took the time out to notice that I stayed popping pills or cut myself on the regular. Hell no seems to notice I'm doing it again now. Except just add large amounts of alcohol and weed to the mix.
Writing was once my escape but it doesn't seem to be working anymore. I had to tell my friends to take my lighters and hide my liquor today. Something that I have never done, but I'm honestly scared of the way I feel right now and even more terrified of what I may do.
*deep sigh* Guess I'll just thug it out and hope thing work out for the better.
*looks up to the sky* big cuz PLEASE watch over me
Sincerely
BabyGirl
