Cried Out

Cried Out

Loved you even though I knew all ya faults
Never cared because you knew all mines from the start
Always respected me, at least that’s what you claimed
Had me willing to do anything for you stayed claiming ya last name
And you play me like a groupie from round the way
Must have got me confused with the bitches you fucked from back in the day
Forgot you taught me how to be a gutta bitch
Was already a rider cause the males in my fam taught me that shit

I please my man out of love and you know that
But if you push too much I’m not afraid to push back
Met ya cousins and ya boys heard ya tell ya mom about me
Know you a thug, ya own child call ya rowdy
But I loved you still
Held you down and kept it all the way real

So imagine my surprise when I heard you played me
Know not to believe that he said she said but the info was sum crazy
They told me shit I knew was true
Time frame fit and knew ya crew
Named ya kids and ya spots
Even called ya baby mama name out
All that shit added to my regular stress
No wonder I snapped and let tears my face them dress

After all this info you would think I’m through
But I still love you harder than a fat kid love food
I see I gotta love ya from a distance though
Always have a place in my heart just can’t let it show
Moving on to someone who treat me better
Was there for the drama so you know I deserve the sunny weather

Hope we remain friends though
My new man can’t stand you but he love it to see me happy so
If I ask him to trust me with you I think he can manage
Cause to lose you as my man is tough however it’s reversible damage
But to lose my best friend would be to much for me to handle
Compared to you my sisters can’t hold a candle
Even though from what I’m told you think I’m aggravating

So maybe we should lose all contact and I learn to deal with shit dolo
This the reason I’m scared to love don’t get pain when I’m solo
But I be closer to death cause I be on them suicidal missions
Welcoming all kind of pain sisters think I’m tripping
A place only love can reach me but can still be ignored
Where the tears flow none stop while my story goes untold
That’s the way I like it though a burden to no one
Just drown myself till I’ve cried myself out and the tears are done

Da Violent One Is Back

Hey world Lil' One aka babygirl aka Shorty aka Lanie aka N.O. aka Buffyy aka Chucky aka da Violent One and the list goes on, but I'm back in the building *in my Madea voice* "How ya durin?" lol

I know I been missing for a minute, but ummm school been kicking my ass. Combine that with all the bull shit that have been constantly getting thrown in my face since around Thanksgiving.

*screwed up face* Short version...Somebody been putting me under the bus had me thinking I was hoe for going on a little over a year. Then add to that the fact her sex life has larger numbers than I do when it come to the number of partners. Plus SHE is the one who has the bad rep not me........Yea lets just say she lucky I'm working on my temper.

But don't think I won't remember that shit, because the days of me jumping in some water head first behind her is over. Like the bitch always says she grown, so handle ya business like she grown without the help of me.

I never really wanted a dream to come true as much as I wanted the one where I beat the brakes off this bitch to come true.

All this situation has succeeded in doing is bringing THAT Bitch in me, and when I say my evil side is showing her head. That mutha fucker is coming out in rare form and with a vengeance like no other. The funniest thing about this whole thing is the fact the bitch got the nerve to have a stank attitude with me. I'mma let her have it though cause her duck ass still think we cool and shit.

Guess she didn't realize that the only reason that hoe been making it and not getting beat down by many a female was because no one wanted to deal with me. Now since I don't fuck with her i wonder how longit's going to take for her to get her ass bust. *shrugs* Not my problem just wish i could see it.

Talk to ya later,
*smooches*

-BabyGirl