The Current Me (2013)

Current Me

(2013)

When I was young my self-esteem was extreme

But the older I got I started seeing the world, and realized I was just a cent

Compared to the glamour, my style is minuet

Family always downed me, so my passion for fashion was slowly removed

Add the other “incidents” and my little bit of confidence was gone

Eight years old walking round like I’m grown

People didn’t see the mask that hid my scars

When I tried to share was called a liar and sent to the back

So all my emotions over the years I just packed

Never saw my true beauty especially in my teen years

Was always the FAT friend, add that my trust issues

Any male that approached me I put a wall up

Wasn’t playing hard to get, just knew with my tender heart and mind; I had to be tough

My legs opened easily because that “precious” gift been took

Let two in my heart but within a year regretted adding them to my book

So after that I never let anyone get close, never got possessive

Never let my feelings show, rule that was embedded in me

People who hurt me most, were the ones who spoiled me

So to this day I’m slow to accept a gift

Starting to truly see my beauty, not fully, but better than before

Understanding my shape attract attention, both good and bad, and age make it worse

Knowing I’m more than just a chick you sneak in the back or around with

My mind alone makes me someone you should show pride with

I know my faults and admit to them

Try to better myself but I’m not perfect

Starting to get “cocky” so no longer feel I have to prove I’m worthy

Accomplished a lot of goals and not even half way out my twenties

Let my guard down to those who deserve it

That respects me as much if not more than I respect myself

At 23 I’m actually seeing myself as a powerful, intellectual, beautiful woman

01- 16-2013