Here We Go Again

I was starting to except the fact that I was pregnant, and was getting my cards lined up so I could have a something to fall back on when I had to tell everybody I was. Well today when I came home I had to run to the bathroom. Didn't think anything of it my bladder is like the rest of my body STUPID.

To my surprise however I saw light blood; this same thing happened when I was last year a week before I miscarried. Guess I should be happy though. I mean for one it's not happening around my birthday like last year, and two I get to get fucked up on my 21st B-Day.

I'm not though, really wanted this one and the physical and emotional pain is crazy. Hope I'm wrong and come July-August my stomach gets rounder. However, I will deal regardless. So if I don't write for a while either I'm dealing with that or it's because I'm handling school work for my summer classes so I can get my  Associate degree and get to working on my Bachelor's.

Mz. N.O.B.