So me and my baby were having a convo last night and some kind of way we got on the subject of disrespecting females. Something he doesn't do, at least not with me. His opinion of me is that I'm not what I believe myself to be and that is a hoe. Now I'm not out here walking the stroll or no shit, but I have had my share of men. The way he broke it down really had me wondering. If he knew that, would he still want to be with me???
I can't honestly say that I would blame him if he didn't, but that shit would hurt to no end. Don't know why I did half the shit I did then. Guess it was a way to deal with shit from my past. Thought it would help me deal, but all it did was make matters worse. It brought up old memories that I tried so hard to keep buried. Just now starting to deal with them, and the side effects from the other habits I picked up once my writing started getting of a stress causer than stress reliever. *smh*
On another note we also discussed our wedding, *lol* crazy right. *smh* Lets just say if things work out we will NOT be getting married in a church. Shit we may just hit up city hall cause he ain't gonna act right. That's only if he can deal with that though, *smh* anyway.
Until next time,
- Mz. N.O.B.
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