Still Hurts

Still Hurts

Hate how much I love you
Even more because you don’t give a damn
Claimed you as my man
But first you were my best friend
Then the drama came
And we both changed
Now you probably couldn’t spot me
Or stop me from doing my thing
Head first in these streets like its nothing
Probably cause since you gone I don’t give a damn
Drinking and smoking trying to get my head right
Niggas and bitches hoping I never make it to light
You the one that kept my heart from being cold
Kept my soul from being black
So when we fell apart
And I crossed that line
I knew there was no coming back
You were my heart and my soul
Still my other half, even through the pain
Can’t let you go and it’s really a shame
Still cry over those twins
They would just be making 2
Acting terrible just like we use to
I knew you were gonna make dem tough
While I spoil dem
21 years, 9 heart breaks, and I’m still moving
But now you gone and I just don’t know how I’mma do it
Everytime I hear our song it hurts
Sleep with my teddy bear it hurts
Meet a nigga with ya name and the pain feel the same
I still hurt cause I want it to be you and me again
The nights I came from the club
Laid next to a sweet gentlemen thug
Dicked down right before I go to sleep
And wake up to the same shit right before I change the sheets
Comforter provider
That’s why he always had a ride or
Die chick in this bitch
Never that kiddie shit
Always free of drama
Except when it came to the baby mama
Feeling like Miss B
How that bitch steady tested me
Everyone surprised I kept my peace
But I did it for the baby hoping the bull would quickly cease
Thinking bout all dis shit
Is about to make me quit
But I thought writing this poem would
Get rid of everything I’m feeling wrong
But the pain still ensues
So the only comfort I have is knowing
He still breathing
Still doing him
Still receiving my love
Even through this its still unshaken
If anything stronger
But being apart from you still hurts
It just hurts

1/28/2011