Need A Vaca

I'm in serious need of a vaca just a trip out this town or away from my parents both would be wonderful. Unfortunatly I got a feeling I won't be getting that or even a break. Nope just keep forcing my body to go through this bull shit and get back in shape. Hope that will get it to stop acting stupid and I won't have to go to the doctor like my girls want me to.

If it doesn't get better soon I will, but I'm tired of getting poked with fucking needles. Plus, I got to go to two specialists on the 20th anyway. *shrugs* They gonna run enough test on me then so screw it.

I'm not better by then I'll just tell them while I'm down there in Jackson. *smh* The price you pay for holding shit in.

Oh well deal with it when and if I have to. Hope I won't have too though. My brain going crazy enough on its own. That is another story though. *sighs* Until next time,

*smooches*
Mz. N.O.B.

My Birthday Wish

Cant help but wish I was home right about now. Need some food and drink only found in my great city. Add that to the idea of being fucked up with my girls, laughing at they friends, and cooling with my baby....my city keeps looking better and better for my birthday. Hopefully I will be but if not my sistes coming visit me that weekend, meaning regardless I'm going to have a good bday for a change. First time in 5 years I will actually have one to be exact.

My Love

It has been 3years and 9months since the last time we talked

You broke my heart on my birthday and after I could barely walk

My friends ask about ya

See niggas that remind me

But they can’t get a chance

Because I’m scared they’ll do

What you promised you would never

Should have known better

But I take it as a lesson learned

Only 17 and I already was a woman scorned

Then I met someone

Who was a nothing like you

Thought I had found someone I could trust

And again I was proven wrong

The only good thing I started writing poems

Downside I got attached to his kids

But what should I expect after being his for 4years

They flock to me like I’m their mom

Probably because I spoil and spend the time

By 18 I was a fulltime mother and wife

Went home and met my Bestie

First person too truly see me

Myself around him unlike with anyone else

When we together I care less about anyone but him

Well except for his kids

And the ones I already had

So by 19 I had 4 and hadn’t pushed one out yet

Not by choice but it is what it is

And I ain’t lied to him yet

But don’t think that I could so I guess I’m cursed on that trek

Everything say we supposed to be together

But just last month I met a new friend

Well…..truthfully he my baby

Us being together driving niggas crazy

And that’s slowly turning me dolo

Yes, that’s means I’m riding solo

While I may not have an alibi

It’s less drama in my life

And ya know that’s my style

Fucking right

Understand I got a fucked past

But I do what I do

Then calmed down a lot

And everything I’m speaking the truth

Not saying I didn’t deserve my status

But the shit then upgraded and I’m far from being the saddest

Like I was when I was out wilding

Slightest bit of attention had my legs open

Side-effect from raising myself during the “tough” years

But I sucked it up and dealt

Only a few tears felt

Which is a miracle in itself

Cause I sit back and think how I got here

Where falling in love is my only true fear

Death I wished for a thousand times

Cause all the pain is gone in my sleep

So a never ending one would put me at peace

Only problem I know some will weep

But I’m from the city where shit happen the murder cap

Where at the age of 2 you know what it mean for somebody to be strap

So that being said I know this won’t last long

Just need a nigga from back home

“I’ll take the Bestie for a $1000 Alex.....

Daily Double?? hmmm well I’ll bet it all”

Unlike the others, I know with him I won’t fall

That’s why he my Bestie and my boy

My heart and my toy

He my love, which is why I play my part

Wrote this back in April, sorry just getting round to posting it. Hope ya'll enjoy *muah*

-Until next time
Mz. N.O.B.

Questions to the Bestie

How did I dream of you before I even knew you existed?
How I saw your youngest before she was even born?
Why do I love you as much as I do?
Why do YOU love ME with all my faults?
What is our future?
What is that makes me feel this way about you?
When did I truly first see you?
When are we gonna be an official couple?
Where is my head when I'm around you?
Where do you keep my heart, cause I gave it to you to protect?
Who are you to have my mind, body, and soul?
Who says I should know as much as I do about you?
Am I too clingy to you?
Am I truly the one you want to marry?
Will this really work out or will I regret it?
Will I be able to handle the pain if it does not work?
Is this real or puppy love?
Is this who God had in mind for me?
Do everbody get to feel this happiness while still on Earth?
Do I tell my parents about you now or wait?
So many questions maybe this is why I don't sleep right anymore. *shrugs* I get to him and I'll be fine.
until next time
- Mz. N.O.B.

Next!!!!!!

So this past week has been interesting to say the least. How you my man but go a whole week without talking to me, but you can reach out to my sister? Then you throw hints out over the internet hinting like you know something. Well please let me know what I did, because for once I really was a faithful girlfriend.
It's cool though. Cause when the truth come out YOU the one who will be looking crazy. I keep saying I'mma follow my first mind but I never seem to able to. Fuck it. Karma just coming back on from my "pimp" days I suppose. *shrugs* Oh well my heart gets what it wants I guess. Just which that thing will hurry up and happen already.

*deep sigh* Until next time
- Mz. N.O.B.