Letter to L.T.

Dear L.,
It has been over 5years since I talked to you, and even after what you did I cannot honestly say that I don't still care for you. If I was to be 100% truthful with how I feel, I still love as much as the last day we kissed. Dreams I remember having when we first met are starting to pop up again. Seem like everything is repeating now that I'm looking back.
- getting closer with my dad
- feel myself getting sick again
- thinking I'm pregnant
- depression setting in (worse this time around)
All the same things I was going through before. Only this time I'm not crying out for you, I'm crying out for my Bestie. He is the one who I found, fixed, and filled my heart after you broke, burned, and buried it.
I turned so cold after you played me that day. Didn't realize it then, but I returned to the lil girl you met that day. Set back out on that track of self destruction. Its not slowly your fault I shoulda been strong enough mentally to not let you in my head.
*smh* I love you but am requesting you leave my brain and dreams alone. Thank you soooooo much.
*smooches*
BabyGirl