Current Me
(2013)
When I was young my self-esteem was extreme
But the older I got I started seeing the world, and realized
I was just a cent
Compared to the glamour, my style is minuet
Family always downed me, so my passion for fashion was slowly
removed
Add the other “incidents” and my little bit of confidence was
gone
Eight years old walking round like I’m grown
People didn’t see the mask that hid my scars
When I tried to share was called a liar and sent to the back
So all my emotions over the years I just packed
Never saw my true beauty especially in my teen years
Was always the FAT friend, add that my trust issues
Any male that approached me I put a wall up
Wasn’t playing hard to get, just knew with my tender heart
and mind; I had to be tough
My legs opened easily because that “precious” gift been took
Let two in my heart but within a year regretted adding them
to my book
So after that I never let anyone get close, never got
possessive
Never let my feelings show, rule that was embedded in me
People who hurt me most, were the ones who spoiled me
So to this day I’m slow to accept a gift
Starting to truly see my beauty, not fully, but better than before
Understanding my shape attract attention, both good and bad,
and age make it worse
Knowing I’m more than just a chick you sneak in the back or
around with
My mind alone makes me someone you should show pride with
I know my faults and admit to them
Try to better myself but I’m not perfect
Starting to get “cocky” so no longer feel I have to prove I’m worthy
Accomplished a lot of goals and not even half way out my
twenties
Let my guard down to those who deserve it
That respects me as much if not more than I respect myself
At 23 I’m actually seeing myself as a powerful, intellectual,
beautiful woman
01- 16-2013
