~ Letter to My Hearts ~

Apologize I returned you too soon

But I was a kid myself so didn't think of the open wounds

The deed would leave

The clotting and pain; overlooked cause I was "untouched"

-Couldn't confirm one problem cause it would cause another

But that same one the cause for my illness

Guess my punishment for moving too fast, but why couldn't my first lost be my last?

Prayed and asked over the years because a mini me would be nice

But my luck with men worse then an armless man shooting dice

So headaches spared, and I can't complain

Just wish it was my time/season again

Daughters playing with their Aunts in heaven

Looking over their twin brothers, my last creation

All four represented in the four that I claim

People don't get my bond with the kids

But if they knew my trauma would they get it then???

After the twins I stayed on control so much, I may never have that chapter told

A childless mother with a broken heart

Face full of tears, how my days end and start

Pain getting intense, can no longer hide it in my voice

Restless sleep, beautiful nightmares ending too soon against my choice

Hope I'm blessed to hold ya'll one day

Be it this life or after

Just keep mama sane so I finish these chapters

And welcome ya grandpa gets there

I'll meet again, hopefully it will be after

Love Mommie

9-9-2024

My Own World